(;ↀ⌓ↀ) Before I knew it, 2+ years just flashed right before my eyes.
Also, DA's 'Core' thing got ridiculously expensive! ヽ(ﾟДﾟ)ﾉ
To those who have visited my page and (for some reason) appreciated the artwork, thank you! ｡:ﾟ*+;(●´･д･`●);+*ﾟ:｡
In the time I've been away from DA I've explored other interests, worked deadly stressful jobs, and for a while I had a really tough time drawing anything I felt was any good, and slowly I felt like I had just become incapable or worse as an artist. That's still my feeling today. Drawing anime style stuff was perhaps not in the interest of my career or future, even though I used to enjoy it so much. I'm sure many of you here can relate to this.
Then I read Higashimura Akiko's fantastic Kakukaku Shikajika. I could relate to so many aspects of her journey as an artist. I've also had the same fortune of having really great mentors who have always encouraged me to do what I do best. But the one thing I took away from that manga was this:
It's really as simple as that. I lost a lot of time because of the inadequacies I felt as an artist. I saw many people surpass me and I wondered if there was any point in continuing. Maybe I'd just reached the height of my potential. But now I realise it was just that I gave up too easily, and never really tried as hard as I could have. All the stress of my jobs also made me forget the joy and sensation of just drawing for myself.
Seeing people here still taking an interest in me and my artwork, I felt a small little spark of what I used to feel back when I was super productive and passionate. Right now I'm just trying to find my feet as an artist again *trying to escape from this art identity crisis*.
I've started on Inktober this year, and I'm doing pretty well so far in trying to just create something everyday. It's nothing as technically impressive as I used to do, but I'm enjoying getting my fingers dirty and going through the process of having a concept and putting it onto paper. (This was seriously difficult for me because I thought if I wasn't doing anything original I was better off not doing anything at all. I'd shut down my creative process and that just made it harder to get anything out)
It'll be a while before I do anything that I'd post here, but if you'd like to follow along on my adventure, I'm currently on Facebook and Instagram (HINT: It's a Rozen Maiden special for Inktober today) so you can keep up with me there.
Again, thanks for taking the time if you've stopped by and looked at all my old stuff. I really hope to reach that level again soon. Hahaha (*;´□`)ゞ